I can't think of the perfect word to describe how I'm feeling today, but the best I can come up with is mopey. Although mopey doesn't quite sum it all up... I feel mopey but also like letting out a serious, belly growl. You know, the kind that makes the ground shake. Just a little shake though. One that makes everyone look around while thinking, hmm that's weird, and where is it coming from...
Here are some things that make me want to go Grrr today:
-The Walmart greeter came right up to Will's face today and asked him what his name was. Then he just stared at him waiting for a reply. After an awkward silence I told the guy that my 4 month old baby doesn't talk yet. Seriously?? Grrr.
-Will's had his first cold. Luckily he's better today, but I haven't slept much in the past few days. Grrr.
- Right after I washed the sheets, made the beds, and hung up his clean clothes, Miles though it was a good idea to take all his clothes off the hangers and pull all the sheets off his bed and put them in a neat little pile. Grrr.
-The desk worker at the gym gave Miles a sticky eyeball... I've pulled it off the ceiling over 20 times today. Grrr.
-Will pooped right before he took his nap and I didn't know it. Diaper rash... Grrr.
-My Utah friends got their H1N1 vaccines, but it's not available here yet. Grrr.
-My twin sister (in Utah) had a baby earlier this month... I want to hold him desperately, but can't. Grrr.
-Will rolls from his back to his tummy and then freaks out. He doesn't play in his crib anymore, he just rolls to his tummy, gets stuck, and screams. Grrr.
-My best friend here in Ohio came over yesterday and told me they are moving in 6 weeks. Seriously do we smell or something... Why do all our friends move? Double Grrr.
-Miles eyeball is stuck on the ceiling again... Grrr!!!!!
I do feel like crying and growling (oh who am I kidding, I already have done both of these things a few times today), but at the same time, this is as rough as my life is right now. This list would be laughable to people going through serious challenges, and for that I feel truly grateful.